I should of never turned on the Today Show this am because um, I am sorry but these guys? Too old for this. Ha, I honestly thought they’d have something new and maybe one or two old stuff…

Dear Jordan-

I am no longer hot for you. I am actually kind of embarrassed I ever was now.

Damn. It’s all I can muster.

RIP New Kids on the Block. Without some seriously help, I don’t think you’ll make it much further.

Life is cruel sometimes.

1. I hate eggs. Big time. Like even when cold chicken smells like eggs I gag a little. Eggs and me don’t get along.
2. The first time I got my period I was in Japan. Imagine me and my Grandma, taller then anyone there, trying to read the Japanese labels to figure out what pads I needed. Let me tell you, it was fun. NOT.
3. I never had that “breakable” baby feeling when Sissy was born even though she was only 6ish pounds. I thought something might be wrong with me.
4. I’d rather have a Happy Meal to a BIg Mac.
5. I love to watch surgery but Buns knee? Can’t stand to look at the teeny incisions. Eww.

So? How’d I do?

Dude, my kids are freakin’ cute., originally uploaded by phat-photos.

Just sayin’.

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This last weekend I went to church with a friend and her family. I was suppose to watched something very special but blasted traffic kept me sitting on the highway for a very long time. I missed it, I was disappointed. I still am.

My friends like this church, I can see why. It kind of reminded me of my Mom’s church. The pastor spoke well and I what I heard stuck with me even though I was distracted by the baby I was to afraid to leave in child care. Yeah I am weird like that. He talked about playing a “papa card”..but what radiated in my head was this.

If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him! Luke 11:13

And he defined evil, in a way I can’t remember word for word but it struck me as true. I looked it up this morning to find-

marked by anger, irritability, irascibility, etc.

or

characterized or accompanied by misfortune or suffering; unfortunate; disastrous

This all made sense to me in some weird way. Evil isn’t necessarily what we think it is and we all are evil. Some just handle it better then other. They’re evil in the way we all think of evil while most of us are just biblically evil.

And God? Not evil at all and just wants to take care of me. The pastor said to get angry with God, have emotional outburst. He wants to here it. So, I will. Once in awhile. But only when really necessary. And he will forgive me like he always does. He’s awesome like that.

This is probably jumbled and probably doesn’t make much sense but I have so much in my brain right now that I can’t sort it all out.

My blog, while getting a make over is the source of some turmoil. You see I blocked someone from it. Someone I don’t want to read it because they chose to walk away from my life. They nailed the coffin that was our supposed friendship, only really we never were “friends”, because friends don’t walk away like that or offer feeling of suspicion and hatefulness when someone genuinely reaches out to say you miss them but understand. They don’t use things in your blog to make their point especially when those blog posts have nothing to do with them and never have.

The ban will stay, I know they’re trying to get around it. I have gotten the referral links from Gizoogle. I’ve gotten the direct links from the board that isn’t suppose to be talking about me. I have the screen shots to prove it. I know people can copy and paste but I was trying to make a point and here is the thing, you walked away. Not everyone has to be friends on a board. We can hash it out, cry our tears and then go on. But you waited for your friends to follow and those friend apparently were never mine either because not a single one even asked what happened on my side. They just walked away never looking back to a board full of people that care or cared about them… that sucks. I am glad to know though that my true friends are my true friends. At least they have the balls to stand up to me… because as I have admitted over and over. I am not perfect, I’ve made mistakes, really big ones but I can’t change the past. Hindsight after all is 20/20.

I didn’t approach it on my blog, I left it alone and talked to my real friends about it. I ignored the shitty comments, the log ins without posting, I commented on blogs hoping we could divide civilly. I didn’t blow up anyone’s website with stupid and immature websites, I tried to walk away. I did. And then I got angry. And now I am just flat out pissed.

Seriously, stop. We’re not friends anymore and my children shouldn’t be of any interest to you nor should my personal battles or my words. If I am so easy to walk away from, then walk away. I did. My Ip? 67.190.128.183 Block it or check it up against the hits for the last few months. While I may have gone to others, I haven’t touched yours because I don’t care…. if you wanted me to be part of your life, you’da let the hard feelings go and come back, we could have talked about it and moved on.. instead you tried to fill my shoes… I hope they fit because I don’t want them anymore.